Prayer and Fasting for Teryn

For the past couple of weeks the Lord has really been leading me to ask others to fast and pray for Teryn. Several times I began looking up scripture and getting together my words to send out to others but somehow the timing did not feel right.

Last night as I was leaving the hospital I drove by a church that was beginning their Wednesday evening service. I suddenly felt such a longing for being able to worship and learn with fellow Christians. Unfortunately this was a Spanish speaking church (as most here are) so I went on to my room. Lucky for me, my wonderful church family had sent me some CDs of recent services. I decided to begin listening to the one with the earliest date. It was a Wednesday night service so I figured it would be perfect. It was. The subject of the message was PRAYER and FASTING. I really shouldn't have been so shocked and amazed, I mean, of course that was the one God had the ladies copy and send to me. Of course that was the one he wanted me to hear at that exact moment.

AS I began listening to pastor and following along with the scriptures in his message I just had to laugh. It is so incredible the way God pieces things together in our lives. I am not one to underline and write very much in my Bible. It has always felt like I was ruining something sacred. I know, I know, I am getting better but still, my Bible has very few underlined passages in it. Well....2 of the main passages from Pastor's message were underlined in my Bible and one of them even has (gasp)....writing. I had written a couple of thoughts on fasting and the state of your heart during it.

Here is what was underlined in my Bible and my note under it:

The scripture says: "...nor will I give burnt offerings to the Lord my God with which costs me nothing."

My note says "An offering to Jesus that costs me nothing is a 'token commitment.' It means very little. If my sacrifice is truly a sacrifice then it will please the heart of God and He will bless me in return."

If you are not familiar with prayer and fasting and its importance, here is a link that will help.

http://www.cbn.com/spirituallife/prayerandcounseling/intercession/hickey_prayerfasting06a.aspx

Basically it is all about heart and as Pastor says, how badly you really want a breakthrough. I don't know if you can tell by how much we truly love Teryn but we REALLY want a breakthrough. Along with all of you we have been praying everyday for Teryn to be well enough to come home. I am ready to let the Lord see my heart and see how much I truly want this. The Lord will give what we ask if we ask with a pure heart and according to His will. I know it is His will for Teryn to be strong and to be able to come home and live a full life surrounded by so many people who love her.

I am asking you to join us in a prayer and fast for Teryn. God cannot help but hear us when we pray and fast. I am asking for you to fast and pray for at least one meal today or tomorrow. Now that does not mean skip your lunch hour and go run an errand. True prayer and fasting means that you will deny yourself by denying a meal and spending that time in fervent prayer. I am asking you as a mommy who desperately wants to see my baby get to come home. If you are not sure what to pray then put yourself in our shoes and think of what we would ask. If you are a parent then imagine spending 84 days so far in a hospital watching your child have to endure procedures and feeling helpless. Just ask God to place his hands on Teryn and make her stronger. Ask Him to guide the doctors hands and give them wisdom to make the right decisions. Ask Him for His will which is health for Teryn. When God hears our prayers and sees our hearts he WILL answer.

I will be waking up early tomorrow and spending my breakfast time in prayer. I have chosen tomorrow because that is when Teryn will be having the procedure that will hopefully be her ticket home. She will be having her gtube advanced. This procedure failed last time. However she is going to have her stomach dilated today so that they will have a better chance tomorrow.

I know that Teryn has so many people who love her and have not had the chance to meet her yet. I tell her that all the time. I thank you for your prayers all along our journey. If you choose to join me in this prayer and fast for Teryn, please know from the bottom of my heart how grateful I am. I will be praying that God will also bless you.

****revised addition:
We went down to have her stomach dilated for the gtube advancement and the radiologist said he was going to go ahead and do the whole thing today because he had the right size tube. He explained everythign to me and had me wait in the hall. After about 45 minutes their attempts failed. He said he does not want to try again. The shape of her stomach makes it difficult to pass it through without forcing and causing harm. He suggested that surgery may be able to pass it laproscopically. On top of this he was unable to get her ND tube back in place. Remember this is how she has been being fed. He had to remove it to do the procedure and was unable to get it back in place. The tube is now in her stomach and as we now know she cannot tolerate food in her stomach. So, yep, she had to get an IV again in order to keep her hydrated. Luckily this was successful on the first attempt but she did have a desat in the 40's and had to be placed back on the oxygen cannula. The resident is waiting to hear back from the attending and surgery to come up with another plan of action because as things stand at this moment we have no way of feeding her.
Needless to say I am frustrated beyond words but I will not allow this to get my faith down. God is still in control. Now even more than before I am begging you to join with me in prayer and fasting for Teryn. We don't just want a breakthrough....we NEED one.